I’m still here! Reflections and other thoughts during my 3-4 month hiatus.

WARNING: This could be a long one.

Yes, I am still here. Not very active on here because well, I haven’t exactly been active.. BUT I have been (we’ll get to that more in a bit).

So, here is what I think happened. After a long, almost two year straight journey with running, I think I burnt out. That was it. I just became burnt out. After doing the 30 Day Yoga challenge, I did end up getting into yoga more. I still continue to do yoga to this day on days where I just don’t feel like doing cardio. Let me tell you: I have seen some positives while doing yoga more often, particularly in my core area. Yay!

While I got into yoga more, I drifted away from running, although I didn’t completely stop. I really didn’t, I still run. Just.. not as often as I’d like.

I found that with all the apps, the charts, the miles, and the blog posts – let me go back to it – I just got burnt out. I needed a break. Simple as that. I can only keep constant track of my running for so long until I realized that it was stressing me out. I suddenly kept comparing myself in every single workout, and thought I didn’t do my best. Didn’t run fast enough? Didn’t do my best. Didn’t run as much miles? Didn’t do my best. Gotta work harder. Gotta be better. My mind became clouded with so much negativity from within myself that I decided to put running in the back of my mind.

But I stayed active. I swam, did yoga, went on the bike, lifted weights, and did my favorite HIIT running workout on the treadmill. The thing is, I just didn’t work out as often as I liked.

After gaining about 5 lbs. (WHY??), I realized running is what kept me truly active, My workouts were organized, I always made sure I had time. It’s time to get back into shape and get back into the routine. However, I realized I should go about this a whole different route.

Since my hiatus, I’ve come up with some ideas that I will need to, if I have not already, implement:

1) NO MORE KEEPING TRACK OF MY TIMES. This means no more apps. No RunKeeper, nothing. While it was cool to know how far I’ve come when I got back to running, it suddenly became daunting when I’d see my times slip, or my miles go lower. I realized I wasn’t running just to run and have fun, I was running for the stats, and that wasn’t fun. I haven’t tracked a run – or any workout – since April, and it feels damn good to not give a damn how I do every single little workout. Sure, when I sign up for races, I’d still like to place a good time, and I think those are the only times I’d actually post up and compare my progress, but I think my goals at any race would just be to run and finish strong. If I happen to finish at a good time, that’s a bonus! i think I’ve come far enough that I am confident in my abilities – I can run X amount of miles, I can do this – there’s no need to prove to myself otherwise.

2) Watch what I eat. I’ve been eating too much good stuff lately, – that means, easy stuff. I’ve eaten one too many DiGiorno pizzas for dinner because I got lazy. Time to keep that habit to at least only 2x a month! I also need to start bringing lunch to work more often – it’s less tempting to go out and overeat on something when I know I have a good lunch! This means I also need to start being more mindful of what I can bring, so I know I won’t wimp out and just buy something later on.

3) Get back to working out 5x a week. This is where I’ve slipped up and I am now suffering the consequences. While yoga has helped build my core, I can’t do it alone – cardio is what kicks my butt, and helps keep me in shape. I will need to implement short yoga sessions into my short workouts to still reap some of the benefits. Or.. relaxing yoga on my rest days wouldn’t be too bad too. 🙂

I’m writing, once again, in this blog to remind myself that I need to get back to it. It was fun while it lasted, but now, Fall is coming.. which means, races are coming up – and a LOT of them. I initially wanted to do another half marathon this Fall, but because of finances (by the way, I FINALLY GOT A NEW CAR IN MAY!) as well as lack of training, I think I will be sticking to the smaller distances. I’m sure I’ll still get some pretty medals along the way.

So here we go – I’M BACK!

Till next time,

P.

Vegas and Veggies, please.

Pano of the Las Vegas strip from Omnia Nightclub!
Pano of the Las Vegas strip from Omnia Nightclub!

Today, I craved veggies so badly, and Chipotle sufficed.

In other news, it has been a very tiring week. This past weekend, the Vegas trip my girlfriends and I were planning for months finally happened. Needless to say, it was SO FUN!

After two days of clubbing and filling up on spirits, I knew it was time to detox. Back to the routine. Yoga + tea, and moderate eating. I mean, I really didn’t do too bad in Vegas, eating-wise. Pho and Vietnamese sandwiches were pretty healthy options – it was the drinking that got me. Well, all on a special occasion, right?

Sunday night, I returned to the mat and found myself a tad less flexible, seeing as I didn’t do yoga since Thursday. A little recovery yoga first, and then last night I resumed Day 17 of my 30 Days of Yoga.

Like running, I keep telling myself that results don’t come so fast – you have to work at it, it is a journey. I had trouble getting the crow pose down yesterday but when I took a deep breath and relaxed, I found myself at ease again. There goes my overthinking again – I really need to work on that. Overthinking is hindering my abilities.

This weekend, my sister will be visiting for her birthday weekend, and I’ve already purchased my Disney tickets! I’m so excited! However, it’s going to be another busy weekend – but I’m hoping to get a yoga session done along the way. My sister’s also been on the yoga grind and has been consistent (and I am so proud of her!), so maybe we can do one together. 🙂

I haven’t ran since last week, and I’m honestly planning for a long, slow (very slow) run the weekend after, in preparation to get back to the grind in May. I miss running and I feel lazy not doing so, but I’m enjoying my break the best I can.

Hope everyone’s been having a great week so far!

Till next time,

P.

Hello, Bakasana.

It’s been a couple days and I already miss having some cardio (ahem, running) in my life.

I mean, just by giving myself a break from running doesn’t mean I’m gonna stop running altogether! I’m actually itching to run a HIIT 2-miler tomorrow morning. I might do just that, honestly.

Also, I think I’m a tad bit excited for the Beat the Blerch 2015 being announced! I heard about this just last year and am making it a MUST do on my running list this year! Signing up.. as soon as I have the funds! With Vegas and Disneyland on the horizon… eek. I just can’t wait to get these trips aside (although I’m looking very much forward to them!!), then save some money + sign up for Beat the Blerch and the Girls on the Go half!

I really have plans to get my butt into gear and get back to training for the half either in May or June.

Another update: I HAVE ACHIEVED THE BAKASANA (in full), or the “Crow Pose”.

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Granted, I can only last about 2 seconds until I can’t take it anymore. BUT STILL. I was absolutely ecstatic! Just two weeks ago (or like, since ever), I could not even try to lift my toes off the ground. My core and my arms were bust. But as of yesterday, I have achieved letting my feet go off the ground!

It’s such a weird – but awesome – feeling to describe. Once I felt confident in myself, looked ahead, took careful breaths, I eventually sank into the pose. Yoga is changing me day by day; I am a believer. I love where I’m headed.

The next step? Mastering the pose. 😉

I hope that everyone has had a great Monday!

Till next time,

P.

A break. Runner’s haitus… and other updates.

I think that’s where I’m at right now.

But I feel so bad that I haven’t been running!

Earlier this week, I had intended to get a run in before my doctor’s appointment, and since I was short on time, I couldn’t. I had to get a holter monitor to monitor my heartbeat since sometimes it flutters (but, I swear, everything else is okay – doctor just wanted to be sure!). Since I had to wear this monitor for two days, and could not shower (ugh, tell me about it), that means nix on the running. Tell me I’m not the only one that gets extremely salty and sweaty during my runs? Yeah.

So I continued on with my yoga. As of today, I have completed 11 days of the 30 day challenge; I’ve been consistent. I’ve been getting flexible. Each day I can do poses that I wouldn’t normally be able to do. I’ve been feeling good. I can hold a crow pose for about a fraction of a second. I definitely couldn’t do that two weeks ago.

Yoga is definitely changing me. It’s changing the way I feel, the way I breathe, think. It’s even changing my posture – in a positive way. 🙂

But with running… I don’t know what it is. After having a solid running schedule since Spring 2013, I think I do need a break. Don’t elite runners also have some down time too? I wonder.

I still have full intentions to run a half marathon this fall too.

If anything, my plan is to start training in June.

Again, I’m not giving up on running altogether, but I don’t think I will be as active with it for the time being. I really don’t plan on making this a permanent thing. Nothing can replace a good run. Honestly, I’m craving a long distance slow run. But after having plans consistently for the past couple of weekends, and then Vegas and Disneyland the coming weeks, this is my first weekend just relaxing. Enjoying myself. Since I’ve been back from Germany I feel as if there’s always something to do, and I’m just exhausted! Tomorrow, I will start off the day with a yoga sequence, and then go for a swim in the afternoon.

In other news, earlier this week I also found out that I GOT INTO THE GRAD PROGRAM I WANTED! With a tough call between mastering in history or library science, I decided to go with the MLIS because it would provide me with the skill that I need. With that said, I also plan on volunteering at the local library during the summer to get some more experience under my belt; I recently quit volunteering at the museum in LA simply because it was too far.

Anyway, I hope that everyone has had a great weekend – tomorrow is Sunday! Time to bask in the happiness of what’s left of the weekend.

Till next time,

P.

Back, and finally 24!

Excuse my lack of posts – I’ve just gotten back from visiting my family over my birthday weekend. Since Thursday, actually. It’s crazy how fast time flew!

I landed in Sacramento early Thursday morning, and managed to get some work done at my Dad’s house while I was waiting for my sister. The rest of the weekend was a mix of eating, spending time with my family: nieces, nephews, Mom, Dad, Stepmom, Stepdad, etc… more eating, meeting with a friend, working from home, catch up sessions with my sister, watching movies, and eating again.

Granted, I managed to have some time for a short yoga session on Friday and a longer one (over an hour!) yesterday afternoon.

Needless to say, I brought my running shoes and did yoga instead.

Since I’ve been back, I’m committed to getting back on track with my eating – not that I ate a lot, I just ate a bunch of Filipino food, which can be really good but really unhealthy. :p I’m straying off coffee and flushing myself with tea. So far, so good. I’ve had two cups of yummy green tea with honey today and my energy levels are pretty good!

I’m determined to keep myself strong at 24. 23 was a good year: I’ve never ran so much miles in my life. I feel like my goal now is to keep at it: to get and to continue to stay strong. Now, it’s becoming a mix of yoga and running, and I’m quite liking it!

I’ve been bad. I haven’t ran since last Monday. I am, however, planning a run tomorrow just to get used to it again. I’m planning on a 40 minute run tomorrow, and then some speed work on Friday. I didn’t realize that I already have my 5k race coming up this Saturday! I’m excited: I haven’t raced since January and it’s been forever! I’m not even going to try and shoot for time: I’m just going to go my own pace, and have fun. I’m really trying to not be so hard on myself when it comes to time since (as I’ve mentioned in my previous post) it stresses me. So with this race, I shall run it and conquer it, and cherish my newly obtained bunny medal. 🙂

Till next time,

P.

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Yoga and running reflections

Happy Hump Day, everyone!

A lot has been going on in my short work week. Today is pretty much my Friday, since I will be visiting my family from tomorrow until Monday. I’m excited!

On Monday morning, I did a 25 minute run on the treadmill. Later that day, I ended up purchasing a yoga mat (yay, finally) since I was planning on starting my program the next day. I had been looking through videos by Yoga with Adriene and it just looked awesome and easy to follow, so I had planned to do her Yoga for Beginners video.

I woke up early on Tuesday so I made sure I had 40 minutes to have to myself for the session. Honestly, it was the fastest 40 minutes of my life and it was awesome. I felt great afterwards, even after just doing everything at home, on my mat. I felt so good that yesterday when I got home from work I just kept looking up more of her videos for which one I would do next. Adriene is a really good instructor if you’re looking into yoga vids, by the way. She captures the viewers attention as well as keeping them as relaxed as possible.

My rabbit Pumpkin had a fright last night and literally flung herself against her pen and got injured, so I had to take her to the vet this morning. Luckily, she is okay and just needs a dose of pain meds to get by; she’s started eating again, which is a really good sign. So I’m happy. 🙂 But before knowing all that, I was filled with anxiousness and dread based on her condition that I woke up so worried. I scheduled an appointment but since she was stable it wasn’t considered an emergency; I was scheduled for a 10 am appointment. I had time to kill and decided to calm myself and did a 20 minute yoga session. Afterwards, I felt better. I felt even better after getting back from the vet, of course. 🙂

I don’t know what it is, but I feel so positive about starting up yoga. I feel that lately, running has come with so much stress. There were always these thoughts in my head: run faster, run more, sign up for more races, you’re too slow, you need to run more… so much thoughts literally battling against what actually felt good to me that it wasn’t fun for me. I remember last year when I ran, I didn’t feel that way. I still feel good after a nice, long and steady run and I don’t plan on stopping running altogether, but yoga – so far – has been a really nice barrier against those negative thoughts. I just feel so much better, more relaxed. I was very skeptical about how people expressed how they feel about yoga before, but now I think I’m getting the picture.

I find this very fitting. :)
I find this very fitting. Pumpkin and I are both in need of some healing. 🙂

I still have a 5k in two weeks, so I’m still doing a little bit of training for that. For the most part, yoga has my attention, and I still have plans to try out a free class at a local yoga studio. 😉

Hoping that everyone has a positive rest of the week!

P.

Darn it – I missed my 10k run. Also: yoga.

With a good reason. At least, I think so.

Yesterday, I had plans to go out and eat Korean BBQ with my friends for dinner. Since Saturday was my cross training day, I still managed to get an interval workout done on the elliptical with some weight lifting afterwards before I got ready. Of course, I had a plan to run a 10k earlier this morning, but sadly, that did not happen because I got immensely stuffed with Korean BBQ and soju shots. I had consumed so much meat that the alcohol did not even hit me.

But, I remind myself that it is alright, seeing as it is not something I consumed so often. I had a great time with my friends for my early birthday celebration. 🙂 I ended up getting some wonderful gifts from them as well and I was so surprised because I wasn’t even expecting anything! I’m extremely humbled.

I went to bed knowing that I would be sleeping in. And so, I slept in. And I was a bit sad when I saw that it was optimal running weather at 9 am… sigh.

To make up for the lack of run time today, I’m planning on getting a run in tomorrow morning. Let’s hope I wake up. Either way, I want to run, whether it’s before or after work.

As a part of my itch to try something new since it’s almost my birthday, I’ve been looking into taking a yoga class to finally try it out. I’ve mentioned it before, and I haven’t gone through with it. Although I love running, I’ve just been wanting to give it a shot. I’m a little shy to start out at a yoga studio so I wanted to ask those that do yoga: how do you like it? What do you think about taking a yoga class? Do you prefer to do it at home yourself, or with a class? 

I’ll continue to look into it more, and if so, maybe I’ll try a class next week! I’ve already found a couple around my area that allows a free class for first timers.

I hope that everyone had a great weekend. 🙂